Judgements

I wish people didn’t judge. I wish that people would actually take the time to go up to me and get to know me before people made judgments. If people actually took the time to talk to me they would think I was interesting and nice. I mean sure I don’t have J Crew clothes or don’t drive a brand new sports car but that doesn’t mean I’m poor. If people knew what troubles I have gone through to get to where I am right now because maybe I would have a little respect from people. I mean we try so hard in life just so that people won’t make bad judgments about us but what I’ve learned in life is that no matter how hard you try you can’t please people. I can sit here and say I don’t judge people but that would be a lie. Everyone judges people. Part of us being human is that we judge people. I mean so you could try to please people but it would really be a waste of your time. So I’m just going to live my life and try to be myself. And I’m starting to learn that I don’t care what the bitches at my school think about me because at least they are thinking about me.

Love

Love is such a powerful word. And I feel that us as humans overuse it too much thinking that we are in love when we aren’t even sure of what it is. I mean sure I care a lot about some people but do I love them? I have a boyfriend and he always tells me he loves me. The first time he told me I was caught off-guard. I didn’t say it back and he got really sad. I told him that I didn’t know what love is.

We will never truly experience love until we find the person we are going to marry. Sure we have our “first loves” but were we really in love with them? Maybe we would just throw “the l word” around because we felt pressured to or that maybe we truly thought we were in love. But do I really know what love is? Maybe I’m just in love with the thought with love. Every love story is different so It’s hard to tell if It’s really love or not.

I guess I’m just confused because I can’t tell if it’s love or not. If anyone knows what love feels like and is reading this please tell me because I need to know from a real life person’s view. I can’t tell from the romance novels and chick-flicks.